And I'm Off!!... again...

Sunday February 15, 2009
Ok- so here's the low down. I did not reach my goals last year. I trained and ate healthy very sporadically and not a whole lot. I lost a total of about 70 lbs from start of year to end which is definitely something to be proud of but I'm still so ashamed at my body and not happy with my health. Most of what I lost was the first couple months of the year and it was baby weight. I did go to Disney World this year at the beginning of January and attempted in vain to complete the Half-Marathon race that I had had a year to plan for. I ran very little of it and walked in pain the remainder of it. I made it to mile 10 before I was picked up by what I call the "Loser bus" for being too far behind the 16 minutes per mile pace. LAME! I was so disappointed in myself and knew I could have done so much better if I had trained properly... at all. I cried the whole way back to the meeting spot on the bus and even though I was happy for the rest of my family that did awesome I was almost too ashamed to even see them. They were all so supportive of me and I so appreciate that. I realized that 10 miles for my first ever race is not too bad and I'm proud of my body for making it that far in such poor shape that it was. What I got from it though was an awesome fun time with my family and a love for racing. I was told by so many other runners there that my first race was the start of an addiction and after my experience I believe it whole heartedly. I left feeling determined to go back next year and kick that race's butt- by finishing in 2 hours 20 minutes. So after I got home and we're settled with our big move and what not I'm so ready to kick my training into high gear and never look back. Not only am I determined in my running goals, I still am wanting my hot momma body which I plan on getting through my running training as well as completing the Body-for-LIFE challenge and making that a lifestyle change for me. Now's the time. I've tried this a million times before but I won't give up just because I haven't stuck with my goals. There's no excuses. It's my time to shine!!